Lynsi is a survivor.
Her dad died when she was three years old. And from that time on, she lived for attention and acceptance.
Sadly, she found the answer to her desires in men, and drugs and alcohol.
Lynsi says she was a spoiled, cheerful little girl with a funny dad. He loved to laugh.
Eventually, her dad was in a “hospital.” In a rehab facility to overcome addictions due to multiple surgeries and, as Lynsi describes it “a lot of pain in his past.”
“It was really hard for me to see him fail, and to be weak,” she says. She knew he wanted to be a good husband and father. But, “it was a matter of time before the drugs and another woman” evnetually led to a divorce when she was 12.
“That’s when I really started longing for that attention and love,” Lynsi explains. “My dad was the greatest source of that” in her life.
Then her world shattered. Her dad had died.
“There was no way I was going to be alone,” she recalls.
At the age of 18, right out of high school, Lynsi married. She says she knew she shouldn’t, and paid the price with her first divorce.
After the divorce, she “jumped right into the arms of someone else,” she says.
Recognizing she has become the outcast in her family, she embraced her position. She started smoking pot and drinking.
Realizing she will, like her dad, meet an early death if something didn’t change. So she made changes.
“I could let go of the pot and the alcohol, but, letting go of the guy was something different.”
Lynsi was still struggling with the fear of being alone.
Praying to God to help her have the strength to do the right thing, she decided to tell her boyfriend that their relationship was over if he continued to do drugs and drink.
Her boyfriend ended up getting saved, so they married quickly afterwards.
Two children and six years later, Lynsi’s second divorce occurred.
“I couldn’t feel like a bigger failure at that point,” she explains.
But, “alone didn’t last long,” She ended up in another relationship with another man. That relationship resulted in another child and another marriage.
“I married him because I didn’t want to be alone… he married me because of money.”
During that marriage, Lynsi’s husband cheated on her, off an on, for more than three years. The disrespect he gave her made her feel those years were “the worst time of my life.”
But, she says, “I felt like I deserved it,:
Lynsi says she could see where she kept getting farther and farther from that love and attention that she wanted. And, she started feeling that she deserved the horrible life she was living.
In her words she was sure “that God was punishing me.”
Trying to resist her third divorce, God took her to the point of feeling more alone and depressed. During the point where she felt, in her own words, like a “piece of trash.”
That was when God showed her that “He was there and He was ready to love me and fill that void.”
“And He’d been there all along, wanting that. He just needed me to let go of that tangible person… dad first, then it was the next guy, and the next guy, I was never willing to just let go to see that God had something better,” says Lynsi.
Her third divorce. “It was time to take time away.”
“That time alone was some of my greatest memories with God” Lynsi says. “I had Jesus touching my heart, pouring into who I I’m called to be and who He sees me as, rather than who I believed I was because of the things I had done.”
Now, she still values the love and good times shared with her dad. But, she shares “can’t compare completely to the love that God has for me.”
She tells those who will listen that God got her back up after all of her failures, and that He can do the same for anyone.
Today, Lynsi is happily married, and serves the Los Angeles community with her husband through the foundation “Army of Love.”
Oh… she’s also the president of In-N-Out, an incredibly popular fast food company. Lynsi is human proof that with the Resurrection of Jesus, there are #nolostcauses